While You Weren't Sleeping

Okay, so after yesterday's pep talk and my vow to indoctrinate operation "You're Not the Boss of Me", I was really hyped up and ready to get the ball rolling. We did pretty good yesterday...I limited Kali's nap times and kept her busy during the day. Bedtime rolled around and she was knocked out and in her crib at 9:30 -- right on target! Success!! But then she woke up crying at 11:00pm. *sigh* I gave her a few minutes and then got up and yes, I rocked her back to sleep. That's okay, Rome wasn't built in a day. I went back to sleep and she woke up again at 3:00 am. *ggggrrrr* Again, I got up and rocked her back to sleep. At 3:30, she woke up again. Okay, what gives?!? I got up again, but this time I brought her back to bed with me. Daddy was NOT happy. Co-sleeping is the one thing he puts his foot down on. No way. No how. But hey, I was tired and he was getting up for work in a half hour anyway! He grumbled his way out of bed and Kali and I slept until 7!! Wooops -- off target!! I quickly got her up, fed, changed her and we began our morning. I told myself again, it's okay...Rome wasn't built in a day.

Fast forward to about noon. I wanted to get out and enjoy this beautiful 75 degree weather we're having and also pick up a few things to help get my house back in order. Kalissa was wide awake and I needed to shower before we could leave. Normally, I wait until Al gets home before tending to my needs...but, NOT TODAY! I looked Kali in her eye and said, "Mommy needs to take a shower and I need you to be a good girl in your crib, okay?" I put her in her crib and started my shower water. I almost took a baby monitor with me so that I could run out if she started to cry but then thought better of it. If she cries, so what?? She's safe in her crib! So I took my shower and took my time, too! I even shaved. I fully expected to hear her crying once I turned off the water but guess what? I heard laughter and squeals! I started to go check on her but stopped myself again. She's fine. So I brushed my teeth, lotioned up and got dressed. When I did finally open her door, I was greeted by this:

Look at that smile!! She was having a ball! I was proud of her for being a big girl and I was proud of myself for taking the first steps at regaining control of this relationship. It's not going to happen in overnight but it will happen!